upside down

Giving thanks. Here in America, we are celebrating Thanksgiving. We give ourselves a chance to ponder our riches, gather with family and friends, feast, and rest. Hmmm. I'm just not feeling it.

Maybe it's this lingering sickness that my body is healing.

Maybe it's family being so far away.

Maybe it's my desire for a global perspective, rather than an American frame of mind (growing up in Canada, I still feel the outsider here at times).

Maybe it's that I want to feel grateful every day for all of our riches, our bounty, our connections that run so deep.

Maybe it's that we decided on a little chicken to roast instead of a turkey.

Ah yes. And this is what the mind does...tries to understand and figure out. Why WHY am I feeling what I am feeling? Then we quickly rush in to try to fix it. Mmmm. I will stay here, where I am right now, knowing that this is life. This moment, these feelings too. In each moment, if I allow it, I can touch the depths and keep peeling the onion.

Just writing this, I notice a smile shifting my face, a softness across my brow, an opening.

I am so grateful for these last few days of low energy which have played out more like contentment and ease and simply being. These times when all the superfluous stuff gets stripped away and you see things from a different perspective.  What matters from this point of view?

Feeding my children.

Reveling in Tim's willingness to step in where I have left off, cleaning, raking, playing.

Tea.

Homeopathy.

Tossing the ball outside in the sun.

Clean water to guzzle.

Joining you here in this strange and beautiful space of connection.

You know, I was going to show you this...

and tell you that I had recently learned from this New Dimensions program that:

The four planes that crashed on 9/11 were 80% vacant.

Well, I guess I included it anyways, because I am, right in this moment, so grateful for every bit of information, every picture, every story, that turns what I think I know upside down and shows me the beauty that lives in everything.

Comments

[Angela]

"Giving Thanks... Here in America... I'm just not feeling it" - I felt completely the same, completely upside down with the world. Had such a tough time with the state of the world over the weekend that I couldn't even come to post anything. And, the 9/11 info you discovered, oh my, have discovered so much as of late. Had to reflect, walk away from the lack of global perspective in this country. Instead, played football with my boys in the front yard and then cooked with everyone in the kitchen and found my peace. When it's too overwhelming outside, it is best to look inside.

[kris laroche]

bonjour gillian!
so glad you are here.

[gillian]

bonjour fellow canuck (i did not know you grew up here). thank you for reminding me to be grateful for the things i tend to take for granted most of the time. homeopathy is something that has been introduced to my family this past year and i am amazed with its gentle healing nature.

[Ivy]

Whenever I start to feel bad for the way you are feeling, you always manage to turn it on it's head. Thank you. And happy Thanksgiving.

[heidi]

you really amaze me!! xoxoxoxo