emerging

After that little series of imagining myself into a spiritual retreat kind of space here, I am re-emerging. It's kind of strange to say that because I've still been living my life, with little silence throughout the day, except when arriving at the computer to post. The intention has been enough, though. For now. During lots of moments I would remember to notice silence surrounding me, the space between all the words and activity. That felt good. 

Silence and sitting and hours upon hours of meditation just isn't my life right now and I'd rather not be longing for that. That's another trick of the mind right there, isn't it? I am here now, with two children, and pumpkins and gorgeous wool and shorter days and laundry and tea with friends and...well...life. And I can still quiet myself within the whirl of chatter and doing. There is silence happening all the time. I can notice that while I am moving about, doing what I do.

The central thoughts (having a birthday nestled in there made for more focused intending) that have taken up residence during my retreat are three:

1. self-friendship

2. wanting what i want, feeling what i feel

3. unknowing and unthinking

Comments

[Martha]

the photos and what you wrote amaze me. self-friendship is something i think i inadvertently understood or experienced in younger days, early and mid-20s maybe, but i'm so grateful now to have the idea of it here again before me. and, love to see the wide, empty missoula avenues. thank you.